Thursday, February 4, 2010
The next chapter...
I've been freaking out, having anxiety attacks and episodes of panic. I try to breath deeply and relax when I feel it coming. It happens ever so often whenever I see a bunch of teenagers. Yup, that's the trigger. I become anxious because this is what is just around the corner for us. I'm noticing that things are starting to change already. Adele is starting to want to only wear certain brands of clothing, she makes up her own outfits to wear to school, she'd like to wear bigger earrings (like in the picture) but we don't let her except for a few pics of her "modelling" them at home. Yes, Adele is only 9 and I shouldn't rush things too much, but if I look back at how fast the last 10 years have gone by, well you know what I mean... Shouldn't I be doing something more to get ready for this? Or is it just best to not think about it and let it happen... and then see what happens?
As difficult as it is to be gaming right now, technically we have it quite good. At 9 years old, we still have pretty much 100% control over what Adele does, eats and the insulin that she receives (she's socially immature for her almost 10 years of living because of her Diabetes). She's old enough to understand most of the Type 1 game rules, but we're the ones making the decisions. We're pretty much 100% in control of her diabetes at the moment. It's by no means easy, but we've become comfortable with it for the most part. It is now our normal.
But this is about to change sooner than we think. Adele will want and need to become more and more independant in life as well as in her Type 1 care. Will she be able to make the right decisions? Will she love herself enough to continue to take care of her Diabetes? Adolescence is a tough time for everyone, now add the Type 1 game into the mix and you've got potential for disaster.
What can we do to motivate her to continue to take her Diabetes seriously? What can we do to encourage accountability? How can we maximize the chances of her becoming a "responsible nerd"? Will we be ready for this new chapter?