Friday, May 27, 2022
Changing my mind about change
I don’t remember who said it. And I don’t remember the exact wording. But I do remember reading that working on oneself is mainly about learning how to let go of wanting things or people to change. Change. We’re most often either impatiently waiting for it or dreading it. We’ve been blessed with warm beautiful days these last few weeks. With some wet cool days in between. I’ve been riding almost daily. Mostly gravel with some road. Groad is what I think they call it . With some BMX in between. This sunny weather after all the rain earlier this month has left these forests vibrantly buzzing. So very pregnant. Birthing fresh leaves. Reawakening. These creatures of light. Constantly changing. If I’m honest, I must admit that I had been restlessly waiting for these natural changes for a few months now. The emergence of this spring season sprinkled with glimpses of summer. Empowered by these changes as they change me. Energized by this strengthening sun. Back to life. Following its lead. Sleeping when it sets. Waking when it rises. My ideal rhythm. Even if most of my rides are local, around these same roads, they’re still never the same. Outside is never stagnant. Constantly changing. Eloquently evolving. A brand new ride every single time. The art of riding these bikes. Irrelevant path. Irrelevant goal. No right or wrong direction. Just flowing movement. The faster I hurry, the slower I go. Everything just keeps changing.
Friday, May 6, 2022
I may have been in middle school? Or a freshman in high school? Maybe? I’m not sure. But after all these years, I still remember reading Ray Bradbury’s science fiction short story “All Summer in a Day”. A futuristic story of nine year old classmates living on Venus, a planet where it rains pretty much constantly, the sun only appearing for a few hours every seven years. One of the students, Margot, had moved there from Earth five years earlier and was the only one in her class who remembers what the sun looks and feels like. Different from everyone else, she is constantly bullied and locked into a closet just before the sun comes out of its seven year hiding causing her to miss the whole thing. The details of this story were very fuzzy in my mind after all these years. But I clearly remember wondering what it would be like to live in such a wet world. The intense feeling of euphoria during that brief period of sunshine. The tragedy of how Margot was treated. The devastation of missing that sunny interlude. And the sheer agony of having to wait another seven long years. Growing up, I remember literally sitting by the window waiting for the rain to stop. Me and my friends in my dad’s garage, impatiently watching our BMX ramps dry so we could ride. Even today, I still glance out the window every single morning as soon as I wake up to check the weather. Rain for five days straight last week evoked memories of life on Venus and Margot’s story. This week the weather changed. Sun and clouds. Drying gravel. Close to 80k on Wednesday. My longest ride of this year. Just getting back home, it starts to rain again. Not for 5 days this time. Just a shower. Poor Margot.