Winter solstice

Winter solstice.  Earth’s longest meditation of the year.  Eyes closed.  This lingering night.  Inviting us to go deeper.  Inspiring us to find truth in our own darkness.  Asking us to stop and ponder life’s mysteries.  Summoning us to reacquaint our self with our self.  This energetic shift.  This underlying voiceless natural readjustment as the light finally starts overtaking the darkness.  Sun’s rebirth.  The external sun that shines on our planet earth.  And the internal sun that shines within each and every one of us.  Can you feel it?  There’s something about riding this time of the year.  The first day of winter.  Fat bike season.  So fresh.  So much hope.  So much promise.  Akin to our own rebirth.  Bringing us back to who we were when we first came into this world.  Back to our authentic self.  Pure.  Knowing.  Trusting.  Happy.  No expectations.  Wholly present in this moment.  One.  One with existence.  One with this darkest night.  Standing at this intersection between this dark ending and this bright beginning, have you noticed the emerging light shining on the new you?  Happy winter solstice everyone ! 

 

Trust me

Who can we trust?  Trust seems so difficult to earn these days.  Living on guard, afraid of being ripped off.  Protecting and safeguarding our stuff and reputation.  Fearful of being taken advantage of.  In a society that prioritizes profit, authentic human relationships have become quite rare.  Almost everyone is basically just doing business, constantly on edge, watching everyone else’s next move.  People politely using people for personal gain.  We just can’t trust anyone anymore.  No wonder anxiety disorders are currently at epidemic levels.  All humans innately come with trust.  It isn’t something that we learn.  We’re all born trusting.  So the real question is how can we reclaim this trust?  Trusting that we are enough.  Trusting that we are exactly how and where we need to be in this moment.  Trusting that everything that we require is already inside of us.  Society teaches us doubt.  And this is what slowly robs of us of our built-in trust.  Doubt means no.  Trust means yes.  Doubt means fear.  Trust means love.  Doubt means death.  Trust means life.  Doubt means ego.  Trust means soul.  Doubt means thought.  Trust means feel.  Who can we trust?  The most important person is our own self.  It all begins with self-trust.  Hope.  Confidence.  Liberation.  Trust me.  

 

Be your own light

December.  The very last month.  The ill-lit season.  The longest night.  Nature’s down time.  The natural world decelerating after this long year.  Somnolent and tired.  Tired of playing these games.  Tired of contemplating every single possible scenario just in case.  Tired of trying to fit into this mold.  Tired of chasing someone else’s dream.  Tired of pretending to be who they want me to be.  Tired of living in this fear.  Tired of clinging to the old.  So many promises.  So few fulfillments.  I am still having a very hard time easing the pace even if I too am strongly feeling the accumulated fatigue from these last 12 months.  Pressing on.  Going through these motions on auto-pilot.  Attempting to distract this racing mind using outer means.  Resisting, even if deep down I understand that this inner stillness is necessary.  To get rid of the old.  To make room for the new.  The old that is no more.  Gone.  Expired.  Dead.  I still tend to hold onto it.  It’s all I know.  It’s familiar.  The new still completely unknown.  Undecided.  Pending.  Terrifying.  I have no idea what I’ll get.  All I can do is trust.  Trust that the new is exactly what I need, even if my mind doesn’t agree.  Trust that it will all work its way out in the end.   Trust in myself.  In this darkest season, be your own light.  2021 is but a few weeks away.  How open are you to what new it will bring?